…and sometimes my brother drives me crazy. This week he has a new interest. He has decided that the family needs a domain, so he bought one; Rangøynes.no. Good idea. The problem is that I have no idea what he is talking about. I love my word press blog, just write, upload and publish. The rest I don’t want to know about. Now I think I will anyway…

Between my dear brothers calls I have been sorting my stacks of paper. There are so many and I need to let some of them go. I really don’t want to organize paper I have stored for more than one year. There really isn’t much chance for me using them, but it is so hard to let them go. Almost finished sorting them but it is still time to change my mind.

Ashley Wren’s challenge today was to make something about our guilty pleasures and bad habits. I am controlling my need for chocolate and cookies. But ***if I have one – I am going to enjoy it – without any bad feelings.

Guilty Pleasurs

 Tomorrow is another day. I am working the evening shift and have the whole morning to finish sorting through my paper stacks.:)

…AW says; make a contract with your self and commit to it. I believe in making contracts and I have made mine. When I entered my page at Vektklubben.no today it was kind of shocking to see that I gave up after a few weeks the last time around. I started at 62.5 and stopped at 60.5 kg. That`s when the chocolate craving took charge over my life. The good thing – I was back at the starting point. It could have been a lot worse.

It is time to move on...

My contract with myself - signed and sealed.

I have made a detailed plan for January. No big steps. No dieting in January. I just want to start eating healthier food, eat fruit and ban chocolate and danish. My program for working out is also finished. Surly no big steps there. There is no way I will commit to using the step machine for more than 5 min. a day this first week. I will increase the amount of time the second week.

It is time to do my 15 min of house work. After all, in the big picture, my resolution for 2009 is to focus on more than one thing at the time…

I have been thinking a lot about setting resolutions for 2009 since Kolette and Jason asked us to set three goals for ourselves in “A life Well Crafted”. It is not easy to set goals and to commit to work on fulfilling them. The good thing about Internet classes is that you get bombarded with the same input from different sources. We all want the same, but we go about it differently.

I have set my three goals. Now all I have to do is find a way to work towards them. Most important – I have found my   motivation.

Organize - Healthier living - Living my life

 This is not easy. I mean, who wants to eat apples instead of chocolate? Not me. I never eats fruit except when I am dieting and I have been dieting twice in my life. I feel more lucky with setting up a system for organising. Doing half an hour every day works. At least I hope it does in the long run.

One of this every day - yes I do need strength...

                           …to dig out some motivation to go dieting – again…

Oh yes...it is time to get starting.

I did go back to “Vektklubben.no” a few months ago and I did work with my weight program for a few weeks. But then I had some kind of brake down and I was digging into the chocolate like never before, and I never stopped. I do not want to talk about healthy food. For one year all my  food has been prepared in the microwave, and I am not talking about low fat dishes.

My daily entry form; Design - Ashley Wren

 The last time I was dieting I was very successful. I was very focused and I lost 13 Kg in 15 weeks.  1200 kcla  a day – nothing more and nothing less. It worked – almost too good. It was hard to stop dieting and I lost to much weight. So I am not sure how to do it this time around.

I am dedicated - I am focused - I am diciplined.

           Really I am – mostly…

So – here is the plan. On Sunday I will make a menu for next week based on healty food. I will not think so much about dieting for the first week – just healthy food. I will start doing some work out – slowly. And I will stay with Ashley Wren to work on my motivation, because motivation is the most important thing in making changes. And AW is all about motivation.

I know I’m not good with”baby steps”, but I am willing to try. I do know that this approach work well, I just doubts that it will work for me. Jason Hall posted this song on the Life Well Crafted message board earlier this evening.

 
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking across the floor
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door

You never will get where you’re going
If you never get up on your feet
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowing
A fast walking man is hard to beat

If you want to change your direction
If your time of life is at hand
Well don’t be the rule be the exception
A good way to start is to stand

Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking cross the floor
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door

Song Lyrics Jules Bass

And I decided that maybe I can make it work…

I have been wanting to join Ashley Wren’s class; Loving yourself in 2009. It is a class meant to motivate weight loss. I decided not to. But I love this girl so much. Her classes are always inspiring and fun. And since I seem to have problems getting started on my healthier living I did hop on the train. I haven’t been given access to the message board yet so I have no idea what they are cooking up.

I want to do this weight thing one step at the time… baby steps. It might be worth the try. One of the projects in Kolette Hall’s class is to make an attribute album using quotes to describe yourself. It is not easy to find good things to say about yourself.  I did not plan to make this album, but it might fit in with my weight journal in Ashley’s class.

So…The house is empted of the good things and I am ready to start walking the baby steps…I think…